For The Love Of God

Everybody who knows Guruji knows that he loves roses. I started a practice of buying a single unpacked rose while driving from traffic signals and then present it to Guruji. This was done about once a month. The practice, however, discontinued for years. On the other hand, my husband used to buy me single packed rose on occasions such as Valentine’s Day, birthday or sometimes for no reason. He too discontinued this practice. One evening I was coming back home from the office. My husband too was travelling with me in my car as he had not taken his car that day. On the way, I saw a girl selling rose bouquets at a traffic signal. She had already passed my car and I was looking at her through the mirror. I suddenly had this wish if I could buy a rose for Guruji. But this girl was behind my car and was going further away. Within no second, my husband pulled his backpack from the back seat and took out one single unpacked rose and gave it to me. He had no idea about my wish to buy a rose as ...

In July 2013, I went to Srinagar, Kashmir on a professional assignment. While coming back to Delhi, I was disturbed for some foolishness of mine which could cost me heavily. On my way to Delhi, I was remembering Guruji and telling him that "if I have you, I don't care about anything. But Guruji I need some indication that you are with me." My love for him was flowing intensely through my eyes. The more I remembered him, the more tears rolled down from my eyes. I could feel Guruji's presence with me yet I sought some indication from him. In the evening when I landed in Delhi, my husband came to pick me up at the airport. He told me that we had to go to our aunty's place. I was tired and didn't want to go but since everybody was supposed to be there, I could not say no. When I reached aunty's place, I realised her brother had also come there and unexpectedly, he gave me two photographs of Guruji which he might have developed a long time ago. The pictures wer...

My due date for delivery was August 24, 2014. I was worried as to whether I would have a normal or cesarean delivery. I had been told that a normal delivery was unbearably painful whereas the cesarean procedure was totally pain free. All my relatives also wanted me to undergo a normal delivery. Finding it cost-effective, I also considered for a while the idea of a normal delivery. Being the youngest and the most pampered child of my family, I was not used to pains and sufferings. By Guruji's grace, I got everything on a silver platter - job, money, comforts, basically an easy life. In heart of my hearts, I knew I was not prepared for a normal delivery but somehow was trying to convince myself for it. My eldest sister also called me and suggested me to opt for cesarean. She was concerned about me and didn't want me to go through pains. She asked me not to pretend to be brave. After the call, I cried a lot in front of Guruji's swaroop (picture). I asked him to be with me and ...